And With It Sadness | 11.24.20
Sadness comes with snowfall, every year falling like flakes and settling on the earth. Some deep sorrow that stirs with the beauty and brutality of this season, and it’s been this way all my life. I see the stunning scenery, yes, I see the white blanket and am thankful for the months of safety from forest fire and drought, but winter has always carried a silent sadness that I cannot quite put my finger on. Each year it feels like a death, a passing of things that came before, of the person I was before, and it the long dark nights and deep coverings of snow feel like funeral, like burial of all that was. Perhaps those in other places in the world that do not experience a winter as harsh as we do avoid this feeling, perhaps those who experience even harsher winters feel it more, I am unclear. All I know, is for me it brings a strange gentle anguish that doesn’t wash out until the snow once again falls as rain.
Forth comes the snowfall,
the frozen clouds and darkness,
and with it sadness.
Haiku on Life by Tyler Knott Gregson
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I wonder if the sadness is because snow has a way of making all the sounds around us muted, less vibrant. It gently hushes the birds, tires on the road make a different sound and even the trees are muffled under their white cloaks. Sometimes I find this peaceful and nostalgic, like when huge fluffy flakes fall for hours and we watch from inside warm walls. Sometimes it comes with winter's fury, in blinding whiteness and howling wind. Sometimes it drops by silently in the night, and we wake to find the world blanketed while we slept, left for us to make a path before we can go on with our lives.
Living in Southern California, I can count on one hand how many times I've seen snow, but I do feel this energy you speak of. & I can only imagine how beautiful, aching, and magnificent it would be to feel it with the snow fall.